I can't believe our baby boy is one month old already. It seems like it's zipped by and this month has been absolutely insane!
First of all, we found out I almost lost my life and Nathan's. If I hadn't delivered by 37 weeks for sure I would not have my son here. I went in to the hospital with chest pains on March 26th. I thought my blood pressure was high due to the preeclampsia still in my system. When we got there my blood pressure was elevated but, not that elevated. The Dr. wanted to make sure it wasn't upper gastric... and it was. My gallbladder was inflammed and hot. I was running a fever, nauseated, and just felt completely awful! The next day, my grandma's birthday, I was to have surgery and have my gallbladder removed. It was suppose to be a simple surgery and I was to stay in the hospital until the end of the day and then go home.Unfortunately Joel had to work so Brittney, John & Sara came up to the hospital to keep me company before surgery. I was a mess... terrified. I seriously thought there was something more serious going on and I was afraid I wouldn't come out alive. The anesthesiologist told me I'd have a tube placed down my throat... I was not happy about that. He gave me the meds and I was out. During the surgery the surgeon found a hole in my stomach. My gallbladder was actually plugging the hole up, which is what kept me alive. If my gallbladder hadn't been plugging the hole in my stomach, the acids would have spread throughout my body eating away at my insides. The surgeon let Britt, John, and Sara know what happened and they explained it to me when I came out of surgery. I was completely confused when they told me I was lucky to be alive, I thought it was a joke. The next day the surgeon came to check on me and told me I was actually lucky to be alive, and if my pregnancy would have continued to 37 weeks, my son would have been stillborn. It was the most scariest thing i've ever heard in my entire life.
On to happier things!! Nathan is amazing. He's at the 54 percentile for his age and is very strong and healthy. He started rolling over from his tummy to his back already. He started doing that the day before he turned a month old. He's also very spoiled and loves to be held. I've been reading him books everyday and he actually pays attention and looks at the pictures. I know he doesn't know what I'm saying or what he's looking at but, I love having that time with him.
Tonight is my first night without him and I'm not in the hospital. He's staying at Grandpa John's while mommy does homework, and tries to put things back together in this house since all these hospital visits. I miss him soo much!! I just can't wait until tomorrow morning when I get to pick him up! I've been tempted to go all night to get him early lol.
Overall life is great! I'm loving being a mom. I sometimes worry I'm not doing the right things but, I keep reminding myself that I'm a first time parent and there will be mistakes made. I'm just going to do the best I can! :)
