I got to the hospital and was frustrated because I didn't want to be admitted to the hospital and also because I was a little scared this headache wouldn't go away. They had a neurologist come in to my room and examine me, he said my brain was fine and he didn't think the headaches were caused by anything brain related... THANK GOD!! I was given shots of nubain (which is what they give women in labor) to help ease the pain and all it did was knock me out and I'd wake up to the same ol' headache.
Days past and nothing was being done. My mom, mother in law, and Joel were so frustrated with the doctors and couldn't get it through their heads that these headaches were most likely caused by the preeclampsia because my body doesn't handle being ill well. Dr. Naylor told everyone he was not delivering a baby because of a headache, and that was enough to send Joel over the edge. The next day (Friday night) Dr. Barclay came in and Joel addressed his concerns. Telling her that this has gone on too long, I was weak and even if they did decide to induce me there'd be no way I'd have the strength to get through it all. She agreed and decided to induce my labor the next morning and told me to get as much rest as I could.
Dr. Naylor was on Saturday morning and the pitocin was started at 6am. After only being dialated to 2 he tried breaking my water.. the most painful experience of my entire life. I was crying and clenching in pain. The headaches were still full force and now I was dealing with someone forcing my water to break when I was dialated soo little. He was unsuccessful and uped the pitocin. The pitocin got to 30 and at 10pm that night they said I had stalled out and they would retry the next morning.
Sunday morning 6am my pitocin started again. Dr. Barclay was back on and thank God for that!! At 1 that afternoon she attempted to break my water. She actually was successful and it was also again very painful because I wasn't dialated very much. After my water broke the contractions came full force an hour later. I was having horrible contractions on top of these severe headaches that I could no longer get pain medicine for. It was awful.. I was crying and even at some points got so frustrated I punched the bed. My mother in law and mom broke down a few times during my labor because they knew how much pain I really was in. Imagine a migraine headache that has gone above and beyond to make you completely immobile, your body completely weak from being sick for over 2-3 weeks at this point and labor pains on top of it. The Dr. decided to put a new contraction monitor IN me and noticed my contractions were very powerful going up to the 100's and lingering in the 70's before going back to a 40 (which 40 was my comfort zone which apparently is really good?) They also noticed though I was dialating. Joel, my mom, and mother in law BEGGED me (literally) to get the epidural at about 9:30 Sunday night. I finally said ok because, I really wanted to have a natural vaginal birth. They convinced me it'd probably end in C-section anyways (which I kinda had a feeling it would too) and they couldn't bare to see me go through anymore.
I finally got the epidural and at 11pm I had only dialated to 4. At this point my blood pressures were deadly low... 90's over 30's. I had been given 2 doses of afenergern (sp?) to bring the blood pressures back up, I was completely grey, and by the looks on everyones faces the nurse included I thought I was dying. My body felt like it was shutting down and I was weaker than ever. I then told them to bring my Dr. in NOW! I said I can't take any more I'm done, my body is done. I cried pleading with the Dr. to just give me a c-section that I was honestly scared for my life. She said let's do one more hour and see if I dialate to 5. You're suppose to dialate 1 cm an hour after you hit 4 cm. She came in at midnight and I was only at 4 1/2. She then said we can wait another hour when the nurse interrupted her and said my contractions were stalling. I had stalled out of the pitocin running at 30 (which it's only suppose to be at a 20) for the second night in a row. She finally said let's do a C-section. I asked her if that's what she'd do or if she thought it'd end up this way anyways and she said her gut was telling her yes. My gut was telling me the same thing.
Dr. Maxwell came in and started prepping me for my C-section. I was rolled back there, Joel came back and it began. I didn't feel anything, and Joel was wonderful talking to me about things other than the C-section, my labor or anything that'd get me scared. We talked about food and I was starving because I hadn't ate in at least 2 days. At 12:51 am he was born. 7lbs. 5oz and 19.5 inches long! I remember Dr. Barclay saying, "Well he's a big baby... and OH he's still a boy!" They got him cleaned off and Joel got to cut part of the cord. He held his son for the first time and brought him over to see me. I was in Awe! He was absolutely beautiful and worth every bit I had just gone through. When we got back to the room they tried to get me to breastfeed but, I was completely numb still from the surgery and he wouldn't latch on.
Joel fed him his first bottle and it was off to the nursery he went because, I needed to regain strength and my body back from the epidural before being able to take care of him. Nathan ended up having to go to the NICU the next day because of low blood sugars. It was so hard to see my baby hooked up to all those wires and an IV in his little hand. It broke my heart. He was doing really well otherwise for being a preemie baby! He was born at 36 weeks, 2 days. The Neonatologist said he was still considered a preemie so we'd have to take preemie precautions. Wednesday night, March 9th Nathan was released from the NICU and was able to go home with us the next day. It was absolutely amazing.
Although I had the worst labor known to man, and went through hell this whole pregnancy and even prior to the pregnancy just to get him here. I know he's worth it. I look in his eyes and when he does his little gummy smile at me I know it was absolutely worth it. I wouldn't take it back and would do it all over again just for him. He's my whole world and I couldn't love anyone more than I love my son. Joel and I are so lucky to have him in our lives! I'm loving being a mommy!!
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