33 weeks

WOW.... I absolutely can't believe I've made it this far. I'm now 8 months pregnant! Our Baby boy is going to be here in less than 7 weeks. (If he doesn't go overdue but, the doctors still think he'll be early) I think it's really starting to hit me, that I'm going to be caring for another human being soon, OUR human being. FINALLY after all the heartache and suffering we went through when we lost our 1st angel, it's gonna happen.

Most people at this time in pregnancy (at least from what I've read) are absolutely terrified at this point. I'm surprisingly not. I'm ready.. We already have the nursery ready, the swing put together, the travel system put together, our bags are in the process of being packed for the hospital stay, bottles are sterilized and put away, bassinet is put together and has a spot in our bedroom, I feel all we're missing materials wise is our son. Mentally I know it's going to be a task, and it's going to be difficult. There will be happy times and not so happy times. It'll take a lot out of Joel and I's relationship to care for our child, and it's not going to be easy. I know all this and I'm still ready. I'm ready for this new journey of beginning our family. I'm ready to watch Nathan grow up, and Joel bond with his son. I'm ready for the late night feedings and diaper changes, and am ready for the midnight car rides just to soothe him to sleep. I'm ready for whatever it takes to make sure our son is 100% taken care of, that my husband is taken care of, and that our family can handle anything that's thrown at us. I know a lot of people have been telling us, "Oh you say that now just wait until you have 2 hours of sleep"... 2 hours of sleep?! I don't think loss of sleep will be anything compared to what we've endured already losing our angel, going through infertility, the fertility treatments, and after what seemed like NO hope conquering it. Not to mention this pregnancy hasn't been easy on my body. SO.. Loss of sleep is the last thing on my mind, this is what we wanted. We wouldn't change it for anything in the world. We absolutely can't wait for our son to be here. I dream of the day I finally hold him and look up at Joel and say, "he's ours, our miracle baby is FINALLY here, they told us we would never have this experience, now look at us." That day will come and it'll be the best feeling in the world..