Beginning of it all.

This is for myself, so I can vent and if people want to read that's awesome. I will warn you now most of my posts will be on my fertility issues and how my husband and I are struggling with it. I'll also mention whatever happens in life.

First a little history with my infertility issues. My husband, Joel and I got pregnant by mistake in August. It was one of the scariest moments in our lives, but we then came to terms with the pregnancy and were very excited. It was one of the happiest moments in our lives. We unfortunately had trouble with the little one from the beginning and I ended up losing our angel at 8 weeks. That was the most devastating moments in my life. We then knew we were ready to be parents and have been trying ever since.

Unfortunately, nobody could tell you how difficult it'd be to get pregnant after our loss. We've been trying and trying and trying with no luck. I eventually went to the Dr. after a few months of trying with no luck and found out that I have low progesterone levels. These levels is what could of and probably did cause our miscarriage. (We never did the testing to find out what happened) I also found out that I never ovulated after the miscarriage. All the time I thought we were trying I wasn't even ovulating!! It was very frustrating. My doctor started me on clomid 100mg and that made me very sick. I ended up in the ER and couldn't bare to do another month. I then didn't have a period even though I ovulated on clomid. I then was prescribed provera and my period started 3 weeks later. And here we are now.

I finally ovulated on my own according to the ovulation predictor tests but I think it was a little too early in my cycle to be excited about it. I have an appointment with a fertility specialist on June 8th and am hoping this is the answer to all my prayers.

Being 22 and having fertility issues is the most frustrating thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. It's tough when all your friends and family have children around you, some on accident and some were planned. The one thing you want more than anything you can't have and it's all around you. I'm not angry though I'm use to it, I'm happy for them. I really honestly am!! I just can't wait for the opportunity to have a little one of my own. I just hope it happens soon. Joel and I are so ready for a baby. Some of our parents doubt us because we're so young, but we're going to prove them and everyone else wrong!!