21 weeks..

I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is going. My little man is 21 weeks and weighs a whole pound now!! :) He's got a big head though lol his head measures at 23 weeks. We'll blame Joel for that!

I've had quite the scare with him lately. My body is basically trying to reject the pregnancy and they say this can be quite common for women who use fertility drugs to get pregnant. Your body isn't pregnant naturally and can cause a lot of problems for the mom during pregnancy which overall could affect the baby. I won't say I regret doing it but, wish my body would cooperate.

Friday night I started getting some spotting and cramps. I didn't think anything of it just thinking it's ligament pains and the spotting could be anything. I monitored it and told myself I'd Call the Dr. if it got worse. Well it didn't get worse but it lasted all night and in to Saturday morning. The cramping started picking up and the bleeding slowed down. I was a little nervous and was at work. The nurses told me to use the doppler and find his heartbeat. I of course ran to the breakroom and couldn't find his heartbeat. I was panicked! I called the Dr. and they told me to come in to the triage immediately. I rushed over to Genesis east and went up to triage. They were having trouble finding his heartbeat too but, they could hear him punching or kicking the fetal monitor so that put them at ease a little. They eventually did find the heartbeat and started monitoring me for contractions. I also got a Ultrasound. The ultrasound looked great he was moving around and was in the breech position. They said it's possible he's just dancing on my cervix and it's very sensitive. Which would cause cramping and possibly spotting.

If this is all it is I can handle it but, it's soo painful. I can barely move. I took today off work and am at home on bedrest. This bedrest is just what I decided to do for the day to hopefully get the bleeding slowed or completely stopped and this cramping to subside. I wish my body was more normal. I feel like I was never suppose to be pregnant and by me forcing it I've put myself and Nathan in danger. I just really hope this pregnancy goes well and I don't put any of us in danger.